Tuesday, August 11, 2009

And presenting the.... BLOGGER AWARDS!

This beautiful picture is for the champion, two times in a row... (This is because this is the second time I do this award thingy..)




Ok, now is for the runner up.. This picture of trophy is for..you know who..





Not sure whether the second picture can be seen but I hope so.. if not, just save the image and yah.. perhaps you can see it..-TO RUNNER UP HORR

The pictures I got are from photobucket and all the people who posted their pictures, THANK YOU! So, this year is pathetic.. 2 winners only?! That is dumb.. So, now that I settled that, I should talk about other things, sad stuff you know..

I don't feel so jumpy.. I don't know why I feel all mixed up. Sometimes, I just get happy and I remember about it, about her.I felt so dissapointed. I miss hugging her. I miss laughing my lungs out with her. And in a blink of an eye, she's gone. She didn't say goodbye. She didn't warn us she was leaving. The moment my sis called me out of school, told me the news, my tears gushed out. Everything make sense now. I didn't get to go to China with my school but I got to go to holiday with her. The first, and last time I'll ever go on a holiday with her. When i stepped inside the ICU, i saw my dear, lying in the bed motionless, she was all helpless. Adults think I don't understand but I do.When people announced that she was gone, I said everything I could to her. "I love you. Don't leave now. I love you too much. We're not done. Don't leave if you love me.." I went beside her and I grabbed her feet. Cold. So cold, even under the blankets. No one hated her. She was loved by many.. work, home, neighbour,friends,niece,nephew, family, me. Alot of people got sick. She did good deeds when she was here, she even did something good when she's gone. She brought our families closer..I'm actually starting to tear now. I wish she was beside me right now, cuddling me, making me laugh, talking alot, I could never get my eyes off her when she talked to me.. No matter what feelings i have, when I talk to her, it always end up to becoming happy, crazy, laughing so loudly, mom would scold me. Now, no one would do anything like that to me anymore. No one for me to sleep against on the arm. No one to actually say serious things in a funny way. I can't forget about her. She's still in my mind clear. Visited her grave yesterday. I prayed for her. I was about to cry but I didn't because she's gone and she's gone in a peaceful way. God loves her more. :( -starting to tear again. Yesterday when I slept, I dreamt her. She was tapping my shoulder smiling at me. I ended up crying. Both dream and life. But I have to be strong because I know, this is what she wants me to do. She's gone and always will be gone. If you're here, I want to say I love you and you're gone too early. I just love you... I'll make you proud and I'll never forget about you.. *kisses*

Petunia screamed at 1:39 AM